It’s been quiet with the harassment prevention order in force. Heather writes:

The restraining order has helped but I still feel random pangs of anxiety because I’m so used to things happening randomly thoughout the day. I also have to make real effort-fueled steps to leave my home. So yesterday I went to the gym and cleaned the house.. Today I took a walk on Revere beach, 7.2 miles of walking. I kept my music off and just spent time listening to the waves and my thoughts. I got a little tiny sun burn. I also cooked for myself. Tomorrow will be the gym again. I’m trying to lose weight.

In the back of my mind, I know the time of this restraining order expiring is coming up. The thought of going back to how I was living terrifies me. I wasn’t living…I don’t even try to think about it if I can help it..